Everything. I spent most of my years searching for love. It was those few missing pieces from the 1000 piece puzzle. I army crawled the carpet, sifted the vacuum bag—twice. The puzzle was eventually moved back to the box. I never enjoyed the 997 correctly placed pieces nor …
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Alcoholism
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46 articles tagged as Alcoholism
I have simply been unwilling to do what needs to be done. There is no two ways about it. I have chosen servitude over sovereignty. The choice to get sober is not drudgery. The choice to get sober is the choice to love. Sobriety isn’t about giving up. …
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I do not remember the first time I heard these words. Undoubtedly, my thinking was too muddled to let them resonate. I have grown to like them. They are a tool to indicate my level of confusion. I was a product of the “survival of the fittest” method. …
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I vividly remember looking at my parents and thinking how screwed up adults were. At a young age I had some, not so pleasant, words to share with God. It was a soliloquy of sorts—God being the audience. I didn’t yet know how to hear Him. Nonetheless, I …
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Today’s writing is après vacation bliss. I am still leisurely and intentional with my tasks. The pseudo-heaviness of life is still noticeably absent. This is a frame of mind I (not so long ago) only dreamed of possessing. The bad news—it will pass. The good news—I already know …
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No one can do for us what we must do for ourself. Simple in theory … challenging nonetheless. While the purpose of this blog is to facilitate spiritual growth in addicts, it is not limited to those who are new to sobriety. This journey in life does not …
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The world feels like hype. Everything seems exacerbated and overly-epic. Everything has so much meaning, that none of it has meaning. The rawer I get the rawer the world gets. I am questioning everything I have ever been taught. I am feeling miniscule with my limited answers. I …
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The OGEL group started working on the 5-Key Competencies this month. Like many, it takes more than one go through for me to really embody new principles. I grew up believing that memorizing the information was good enough. But once the test was finished the information moved to …
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I feel compassion for those who struggle with alcohol—any addiction really. It is a stifling mindset. Addiction is lonely and truly unforgiving. The peak of addiction is an especially painful chapter in life. When we are near the end of our “drinking chapter” it seems overly agonizing because …
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I remember hangovers about as much as I remember childbirth. Only if I try, but it’s not on my checklist of tasks for today. It’s not that I tried to forget. It’s that it just leaves, seemingly disappears. I am left with the softer memories. While this is …
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