I can picture no element of gratitude. I feel insignificant, bleak—dare I say annulled. There is no half-full or half-empty because there is no glass. There is no leap, for I have no wings. I was mistaken. I cannot make sobriety work for me. She asks me to …
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45 articles tagged as Alcoholism
Now that we are half way into January most of us are clearer on the effort that goes into making a change. For me, change comes down to two choices: elimination or moderation. In most all cases I have gone for moderation first. After all, why totally remove …
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Like much of humanity I have believed aesthetic beauty as real beauty. And by beauty I mean (shamefully) more worthy. As if a thing is more loveable because it possesses appeal. Sight, via my eyes, was my pathway to beauty or lack of. My longing to be visually …
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I have a profound respect for those who manage to get sober this time of the year. The near impossible requirements of early sobriety are amplified at holidays. This was the time of year most of us seemed to fit in—finally, everyone else was drinking excessively too. We …
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This is the actual private journal entry I wrote when struggling for the words to this week’s post. It seemed to morph—quickly. Too quickly. Then I thought to share some of my deeper personal thoughts (dialogues) as this has become my favorite tool for coping with my internal …
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The one consistent action that alcoholics in recovery (not to be confused with in abstinence) perform is putting all their troubles on the ‘table’. This is a physical or metaphysical place depending on the individual. If I continually overlook this process, I will inevitably find myself in pain: physical and/or …
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frag•ment n. a part broken off or detached, isolated, unfinished, or incomplete part origin: 1530s, from L. fragmentum “ a fragment, remnant.” From the root of frangere “to break” (fraction) ¹ Fractions can be a difficult concept for kids to learn. How can there be less than a whole? …
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This was—is—the hardest of principles for me to grasp. Yet when I, even slightly, welcome this notion, I am somehow nudged to see the situation anew. This is my very least favorite moment of personal growth. In part, I have tried to avoid these moments, but this too …
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Everything. I spent most of my years searching for love. It was those few missing pieces from the 1000 piece puzzle. I army crawled the carpet, sifted the vacuum bag—twice. The puzzle was eventually moved back to the box. I never enjoyed the 997 correctly placed pieces nor …
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