Just because I no longer drink doesn’t mean I don’t have an anti-Lisa still living within me. My god, she can be unbearable too. Her bright idea today was to not post. It’s been so long anyway, another week won’t matter. I used to think it was the …
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My last September Sunday to squeeze in a post. In the spirit of keeping my “monthly post” commitment I’m getting this up here today. It’s a little less polished than I prefer, but—oh well. Personal stuff: Life is good, as my perceptions continue to transform. I am happy …
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It’s just not enough to “want to change.” Want. It’s a word that leaves me hanging for more. It’s a perpetual state of never having—just longing. All my positive affirmations and wanting, as of late, have only produced more wanting and more longing. On the tail end of …
Read more →Today I am feeling like a regular-not-alcoholic girl who doesn’t want to talk about sobriety. Honestly, I’m feeling exhausted with the topic. That being said, everything—for alcoholics—manages to weave itself back into the fabric of sobriety. Why? Because for those of us that fall into the category of …
Read more →Last week’s post comment, via ByeByeBeer, spurred this post on the Pendulum. The Pendulum is a staple in my toolbox. When I first got sober I was under the illusion that I was going to actually rid myself of my yuckier side. I did rid myself of …
Read more →A big block in my recovery from alcohol addiction (and addictions that followed) was deciphering the difference between seeing the situation for what it really was versus seeing the situation for how I hoped it was. Looking back I can see that I was more or less under …
Read more →We are tethered: the addict and the one-who-loves-the-addict. We don’t experience our life separate from those we love. Just because we aren’t in the same room doesn’t mean our actions aren’t detrimental. We each tug the other through our action—or lack of. What we do matters—for both of …
Read more →Have I succeeded in establishing and living by my own standards or do I simply, or at times blindly, follow those handed down to me? By “standards” I am referring to my chosen principles. For me there was the first set of principles that applied equally and then …
Read more →When you are capable of doing for yourself, it is best to do for yourself. However when you’ve tried and you find you cannot, it is best to ask for help. Asking for help can be both a strength and weakness depending on your point of origin when …
Read more →Another week of learning. Awareness … that’s the word for the week. Everything is on a cycle, everything, absolutely everything. Why did I ever think I was going to arrive at this final place of complete and utter joy … and …that it was sustainable? (Well, that’s another …
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