It’s easier to think about new tasks than do new tasks. The scenario for me goes something like this: 6:00 am — Peace-filled, committed, serene, accepting, spiritually grounded. 9:00 am — Engaged in the day intellectually. Noon — Less engaged spiritually and more easily swayed by internal conversation. 3:00 …
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For Everyone
Seems there is a great deal of conversation regarding de-stigmatizing “addiction.” Addicts don’t want to be shun any longer. We want the community, our family, to see we have a disease. We want to be granted forgiveness for our illness. After all, no one is angry at you …
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The way we approach our sobriety is the way we approach life. We hate this parallel. We liked to think we were proficient in most areas and that our drinking was the only problem we possessed. We were shocked to realize that our alcoholic drinking was the effect …
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While I try and keep the blog upbeat (solutions, hope) there are days I feel blind-sided by people I love and humanity in general. What are we thinking? Why are we doing this? Where is the compassion? Why don’t we take the time to teach? Why don’t we …
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Today, truthfully the last couple days, I have been blue. I reject this emotion on so many levels. I consider it less-than. I want it tossed like trash, something to be eliminated—removed from my being. Intellectually I think this is possible; emotionally this is not probable. I am …
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The Beginning You were already there when I walked in the room. Everyone loved you and wanted to be with you. I was intrigued, but a little scared. Someone suggested I would feel better if I got to know you. I hesitantly agreed. I didn’t want to know …
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It’s officially starting today. I am packing the RV to head to the Colorado River. I have learned if I wait until I am on holiday, to enjoy holiday, I will miss half of the vacation. That said, I excitedly and apprehensively shut down shop for one week. No computer, …
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At the end, my only solution had been to drink. I had long since relinquished my ability to choose. No longer a luxury—alcohol was now a necessity. I worshipped and welcomed its presence in my body. A blackout, or an I-ran-out, brought the day to a close. Sometimes I would …
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We own everything that happens around us as if the universe was out to mock, assault or, at the very least, inconvenience us. This is inaccurate; flat out untrue. The universe in its intelligence wants us to flourish. “Biological imperative” is built into us at a cellular level. …
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I have plenty of days when I am not up for “the journey.” I want the reward—now. It’s really that simple. I banter with self, dramatically exalting that, I’m too… exhausted from feeling my feelings achy fingered from journaling; pen gripped too tight frustrated with what appears to be …
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