“I’m sure, 100 % confident, that this is what I want. Yes, there is no question about it. I’m going to attract this, create this, today. The universe knows I want this. It will be here—soon. I’ve prayed, asked, hoped, ordered, and craved this. Okay, so where is it? Universe why isn’t it here? Universe? Is anybody listening?”

Sound familiar to anyone? Probably too familiar. We learn (and apply) part of the formula for achievement but not the whole formula; then we are mystified at the complexity of the Universe (or God) because we have not manifested the correct outcome. We can be reassured, however, that any complexity stems from our comprehension of the equation and not the equation, per se.

The equation: md + ma2 + turoti = dr

My desire (genuine) + my action (multiplied) + the universe’s receipt of this information = desired result.

The equation works perfectly. The confusion comes when I am not clear on what it is that I am calling forth (my desire). If this is not crystal clear, my actions won’t be either. When neither of these are in alignment the universe is getting a signal that reads, red light, no green light, no yellow, wait green again, red, now yellow, wait green again, stop its red. It’s no mystery why the universe doesn’t manifest on my behalf. It doesn’t get a clear signal. This is why I don’t attract what it is I say I desire. I don’t truly want what I say I want. I’m scared of what I desire; I’m (sadly) comfortable and feel protected by not stepping into a greater version myself.

It’s not that my body refuses. It’s that I refuse. On a subconscious level, I am refusing. The obstacles seem too overwhelming. My lower self, ego self, is content with the mediocrity (and in some cases disaster) of my life. My lower self will never feel compelled to carry me to greater heights. If I want something greater it has to be a choice; one of free will. I choose it and then I work toward it with perseverance. My body will do nothing that my mind does not tell it to do. If I am not achieving it then something within me is interfering. Not something outside of me. Something within! When I am willing to look within toward that which is holding me hostage, then I will manifest. This belief is what’s holding me back. It would behoove me to find it and talk to it.* When it is free, I am free. When I am free the light stays green.

*Find journaling techniques on pages 121-122 of Sober Identity