I have a love/hate relationship with ‘feelings’. I’m in the place of pain today. While I have not had a drink in many years, I feel overwhelmed with pain—to the point of wanting escape. Note: I do not want to drink (I hate drinking) I just don’t want …
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mindset
Just because I no longer drink doesn’t mean I don’t have an anti-Lisa still living within me. My god, she can be unbearable too. Her bright idea today was to not post. It’s been so long anyway, another week won’t matter. I used to think it was the …
Read more →Today I am feeling like a regular-not-alcoholic girl who doesn’t want to talk about sobriety. Honestly, I’m feeling exhausted with the topic. That being said, everything—for alcoholics—manages to weave itself back into the fabric of sobriety. Why? Because for those of us that fall into the category of …
Read more →I remember the day I decided to stop drinking. I honestly thought it might be a little challenging, maybe even uncomfortable, but it never genuinely crossed my mind that it was going to be difficult—near impossible. I still believed I was a normal drinker and normal drinkers can …
Read more →Last week’s post comment, via ByeByeBeer, spurred this post on the Pendulum. The Pendulum is a staple in my toolbox. When I first got sober I was under the illusion that I was going to actually rid myself of my yuckier side. I did rid myself of …
Read more →Somewhere deep inside of us there is a sweet and loving voice encouraging us to make the right choice. And by right choice I am referring to the loving choice. I’ve yet to meet a person who didn’t have some type of moral code (aka principles). Even for …
Read more →We almost take comfort in the (presumed) fact that we are battling alcoholism. We prefer to think of alcoholism as something outside of us. We favor the idea that the alcohol is the problem; if only we could get rid of the alcohol, then we would be okay. …
Read more →I have plenty of days when I am not up for “the journey.” I want the reward—now. It’s really that simple. I banter with self, dramatically exalting that, I’m too… exhausted from feeling my feelings achy fingered from journaling; pen gripped too tight frustrated with what appears to be …
Read more →Have I succeeded in establishing and living by my own standards or do I simply, or at times blindly, follow those handed down to me? By “standards” I am referring to my chosen principles. For me there was the first set of principles that applied equally and then …
Read more →We almost take comfort in the (presumed) fact that we are battling alcoholism. We prefer to think of alcoholism as something outside of us. We favor the idea that the alcohol is the problem; if only we could get rid of the alcohol, then we would be okay. …
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