I wrote my life in ink, not pencil. I can go back and strike through it, but it can never be undone—erased. I can’t choose yesterday again. Erasers remove the error on my son’s math homework, they do not eliminate, or fix, my yesterday. My yesterday is un-alterable. …
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So often we arrive at alcoholism’s door expecting that we will be okay with the fact that we want to quit drinking. Most often (if we are lucky) we do not. If we are completely resolved to giving up the drink/drug the odds are that we have done …
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As a coach by occupation and a spiritual seeker by nature I find my world is riddled with more questions than answers. Even when I find an answer it begets more questions. I am learning to acquiesce to this apparently never ending cycle of learning. But I’m not …
Read more →Tomorrow marks my son’s 14th birthday. He has been my greatest teacher. I wonder all these moments who was teaching whom. He brought me curiosity, creativity, wonder, discipline, courage, and the longing for more of life. Both my kids were paramount reasons for ending the ‘chaos of drinking’. …
Read more →Spirituality is a controversial topic in general, but a particularly heated topic for newly recovering addicts. If I am a believer it’s a non-issue. If I’m not a believer it can make or break my future. Do I need to see to believe or do I believe to …
Read more →Like much of humanity I have believed aesthetic beauty as real beauty. And by beauty I mean (shamefully) more worthy. As if a thing is more loveable because it possesses appeal. Sight, via my eyes, was my pathway to beauty or lack of. My longing to be visually …
Read more →It’s Easy … It’s easy to listen attentively … when you are saying words I want to hear. It’s easy to offer more … when I am certain you are giving more. It’s easy to have patience … when the situation is not filled with noise. It’s easy …
Read more →I don’t give you everything you want so you can be more comfortable. Being comfortable is not the meaning or purpose of life. I don’t do everything for you because you lovingly ask it of me. Giving you everything (you think) you want fortifies your idea that you …
Read more →We own everything that happens around us as if the universe was out to mock, assault or, at the very least, inconvenience us. This is inaccurate; flat out untrue. The universe in its intelligence wants us to flourish. “Biological imperative” is built into us at a cellular level. …
Read more →My life coach brought me my running socks and dropped them at my feet. It was the second time in as many days. This time, she was not to be dismissed. Pick up, drop, pick up, drop. At 9:10 A.M. I reasoned with her, without comprehension, that I …
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